why am i scared

I am scared of everything and i mean everything ghost, bugs, the dark, zombies even thou there not real but i sometimes sit there an think what if zombies where here how would i protect my kids ha-ha silly i no but everything scares me. I ¬†am the biggest wimp ever it drives me crazy. Me and my 3 kids live with my mum now and when she spends the night in her mums i am terrified i have lived in this house since i was a baby an ever since i can remember iv always been scared when i am alone its crazy and i don’t no why this house is home to me and it should be the safest place to me and it is when my mum is here its just when im alone.

When i was younger me and my best friend called Sara she always used to stay here we are still to this day like sister’s we first meet each other in nursery.

Anyway my mum would go out on a weekend and when she thought she could trust us to stay on our own she stopped getting a babysitter if we needed as if anything happened there was always one of our friends from next door who would phone mum

Anyway as i was saying once mum said she would trust us on our own we thought yes we have a house to our self we were about 13 or 14 we soon wished we had our babysitter back. When we were sat upstairs we could here banging down stairs or if we were down stairs we would here it up stairs it was so scary.

When i am alone in it now i don’t here the banging but i always feel like am not alone its so freaking scary my oldest son laughs his head off at me running up the stairs because i feel like someone is there watching me ha-ha come on Beth i mean i will be 27 years old next month ha-ha..